Summer Saturday

The crickets are chirping rhythmically, and I spent the evening chatting on the porch with a friend. Summer is still here, and I have to keep reminding myself "I still have time. I still have ti." For some unknown reason, I'm feeling so mortal lately, like my life is about to change, like I'm about to lose myself or someone I love. Maybe it's been the cancer and chemo angst of my mentor. Maybe it's been seeing my grandparents age. Maybe it's being 33 and single and childless. Maybe...just maybe...it's August, and the summer which once seemed to be an eternity ahead of me is collapsing into a few precious days of relaxing and rehearsing. I love my life in the school year, but was too over-scheduled last year, and kind of dread re-entering the ratrace. I think I've made some changes that will make my life more tolerable once autumn returns, but I don't know if I've changed enough!

Yesterday I went shopping with a young friend of mine, and decided to change my style, moving away from the frumpy dresses I've worn for years. It was amazing--I actually enjoyed trying clothes on. Maybe I'm just changing. Growing up? Who knows...

That's it for now!

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